I have now spent a total of 5 weeks here. Time is flying
faster than I ever imagined. Every week
has something unique about it. Everyday I’m starting to love the Philippines
more and more. This past week many of the staff here went through a tragic
time.
One of our workers here had to deal with the death of her 17 year old son. He was killed in a motorcycle accident. The accident brought so much pain to everyone’s heart. In the beginning I was able to hold my emotions in. I hurt for Malou a lot but I didn’t know her son that well. Later that night one of Michael's (son) friends walked into the door looking for my friend Cindi. As she walks out she says to the friend “Did you hear?” He looked at her with confusion at first. Then out of his mouth were the words “He’s not dead is he?” Right then and there I broke down. I couldn't hold it in any longer. To see the hurt on everyones faces made me hurt more and more. Funerals here in the Philippines are a lot different than in America. They have several services and people are here 24 hrs a day. It can last up to 2 + weeks. Whenever you have the money and the whole family is here then they move on with the burial. We will be having the burial thursday of this week!
Have you ever been somewhere that seems to really push you when you least expected it to. Have you ever met people that seem to really push you and tell you to strive for what you feel God is leading you to do?... Well.. I have! Have you ever sat somewhere thinking... " I have no one to go to and talk to.. and then everything changes within mintues?.. These past few days has really been quite amazing. I don't think i have ever been so pushed here as much as I am now. Not pushed in the way of "you must do this..." but pushed in the way of "If its from God...then go after it. This past week I had the opportunity to meet some incredible people. Each day they continue to share with me their expereinces as I share mine. It has been so awesome to go to each of them and just share whats on our heart. I sat with Tasha one night and we talked about how much God speaks to us. We shared stories back and forth about ways he has been speaking to us recently and ways he has spoken to us before. We shared about the gifts God has placed us with and the confidence it takes to follow his footsteps. I have learned so much from these people. I have learned that God has given me a call. I may not be for certain what my future call is but He did give me the call to come here. I'm still learning the ropes here. I'm never gonna get everything perfectly fit into places. There are going to be times where I want to just give up and think... I'm not capable to finish this internship.. I'm not going to let that happen. I'm going to fight through it. I'm going to have the confidence and faith that God knows my life. He knows whats coming in the future and even though I don't know the future right now.. I will eventually. I must stop trying to make every little thing perfect here and trust I'm in the right hands as well as know thing will get rough at times.
Never in my life did I expect to have such an experience that I’m having. I used to think that after High School I had to go to college. I had to figure out what I wanted my future to be. To be honest I still don’t know what exactly I want to do in life. Going into this I thought the whole time that this experience would give me a taste of what I want to do. A lot of people think that. There are things here and there that catch my attention but I’m still searching and I’ll continue to search until I hear from God of the perfect thing.
thanks for reading. :)
One of our workers here had to deal with the death of her 17 year old son. He was killed in a motorcycle accident. The accident brought so much pain to everyone’s heart. In the beginning I was able to hold my emotions in. I hurt for Malou a lot but I didn’t know her son that well. Later that night one of Michael's (son) friends walked into the door looking for my friend Cindi. As she walks out she says to the friend “Did you hear?” He looked at her with confusion at first. Then out of his mouth were the words “He’s not dead is he?” Right then and there I broke down. I couldn't hold it in any longer. To see the hurt on everyones faces made me hurt more and more. Funerals here in the Philippines are a lot different than in America. They have several services and people are here 24 hrs a day. It can last up to 2 + weeks. Whenever you have the money and the whole family is here then they move on with the burial. We will be having the burial thursday of this week!
Have you ever been somewhere that seems to really push you when you least expected it to. Have you ever met people that seem to really push you and tell you to strive for what you feel God is leading you to do?... Well.. I have! Have you ever sat somewhere thinking... " I have no one to go to and talk to.. and then everything changes within mintues?.. These past few days has really been quite amazing. I don't think i have ever been so pushed here as much as I am now. Not pushed in the way of "you must do this..." but pushed in the way of "If its from God...then go after it. This past week I had the opportunity to meet some incredible people. Each day they continue to share with me their expereinces as I share mine. It has been so awesome to go to each of them and just share whats on our heart. I sat with Tasha one night and we talked about how much God speaks to us. We shared stories back and forth about ways he has been speaking to us recently and ways he has spoken to us before. We shared about the gifts God has placed us with and the confidence it takes to follow his footsteps. I have learned so much from these people. I have learned that God has given me a call. I may not be for certain what my future call is but He did give me the call to come here. I'm still learning the ropes here. I'm never gonna get everything perfectly fit into places. There are going to be times where I want to just give up and think... I'm not capable to finish this internship.. I'm not going to let that happen. I'm going to fight through it. I'm going to have the confidence and faith that God knows my life. He knows whats coming in the future and even though I don't know the future right now.. I will eventually. I must stop trying to make every little thing perfect here and trust I'm in the right hands as well as know thing will get rough at times.
Never in my life did I expect to have such an experience that I’m having. I used to think that after High School I had to go to college. I had to figure out what I wanted my future to be. To be honest I still don’t know what exactly I want to do in life. Going into this I thought the whole time that this experience would give me a taste of what I want to do. A lot of people think that. There are things here and there that catch my attention but I’m still searching and I’ll continue to search until I hear from God of the perfect thing.
thanks for reading. :)
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